My Usual Pattern: Rinse and Repeat

"Boy meets Girl
Boy likes Girl
Girl likes Boy
Girl and Boy start 'Seeing each other'
Girl tells Boy how great he is
Boy believes Girl likes Boy too much
Boy gets worried about Girl becoming overattached
Boy inturn becomes overattached to Girl
Girl breaks Boys heart"

Maybe I have it coming to me. If I can't learn from my past mistakes what good are the mistakes in the first place. I'll continuely make them unless I change. What mistakes? I hear you cry, desperate to be told the inner working of mind. Well. Allow me to regail you with my usual pattern.

For a short version, besides from the one above, there is a Poem: My Usual Pattern
But, as it is constrained to rhyme schemes it may not give you the full idea.

When I fall for girls it usually begins by a little bit of flirting, here and there. Now I will like this girl, obviously, but I won't be head over heels. I always enjoy the thrill of the chase, the build up to the catch, more then I do the catch. This is usually down to my insecurities or my doubts/fears. By the time we've chatted a while we probably start 'seeing each other', it'll be casual. There will be commitment there but it wont be life changing and it wont be the most strongest of things. Now by this time the flirting gets heavy.
Situation A: I was told, constantly, how much better I was then her ex.
Situation B: I was told I was amazing and <insert wildly over the top compliments here>.
Situation C: I was told that she loved me, that I made her so happy.
This is when I get scared.

My head is now trying to work out what to do. In my mind I now have a girl fawning over me. Part of me fills with doubts, maybe they like me more then I do and this would certainly be supported by some of the things they've said. But if I get into a realtionship I wont be free anymore. I wont be able to meet new girls, I will be just with the one. But then I think how much I like them, how pretty I think they are, and how I would be happy if I made the commitment as the sacrifice really isn't that large. Boom. I fall.
Now whether I felt this way before, I simply didn't admit it, or whether it is brought on through a thought process of me under my false belief of how much they like me, either way. It happens.

Now baring in mind all this, the usual reason I get dumped is due to me 'Being too attached'. It's as ironic as it is annoying.

So I have to change. When I notice the signs, I have to not give in. I have to distance myself a little and try to not fall to one extreme. But this is so hard! I thought I had learnt the first time. But I didn't. I thought I learnt the second time. But I didn't. I am always hit with that false hope, that one treacherous thought which says: 'Maybe this time is different. Maybe if I don't follow my heart I will lose her' well my heart apparently has awful navigational skills and I end up scaring them away more then keeping them. Scaring isn't caring!

I am sure you will see another blog, a few months down the line, where all this happens again. I sit and mope and moan, again. And I talk about how I made the same old mistakes, again. But who knows ay. Maybe I wont make the same mistakes?