So Winter-een-mas started yesterday!
The gamers holiday, for those of you who think I have gone insane.
I just wish I had more money to buy some games... Or that there were more games out that I want. Currently filling my life with Super Mario Galaxy and Metroid Prime 3: Corruption. Almost completed Mario though, absolutely amazing game. A present from an Absolutely amazing person!
Happy Holidays!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Delays, Thursdays, Rantity Rantity
Ok, So this post is delayed. Much like the post on The Shaun and Andy Project. What? You haven't checked it out yet?
Well hop to it!
But moving on, Its now Friday but I missed a Thursdays 'What I hate' and yesterday.. Well.. I really couldn't find anything I hate, nothing at all pissed me off, I woke up embodying such harmony and lust for life that I must have been sickening to even be near let alone speak to... Ok so I wasn't that bad.
So I got to thinking what I could write about... You have to understand I am not an angry person, not a lot can annoy me... PEOPLE can Annoy me, thats another matter, but not a lot in general really annoys me. This is proving a difficult task. However, they say its good to vent, good for the soul, good for your blood level, all that, so lets do it. I thought.. What should I type about? Lectures started this week?, well thats an easy subject, The state of my Kitchen?, I'd sound like a cleanliness freak... but my kitchen is so bad, What about how I actually considered skipping my lessons today on one of my first days back? You know.. Write more about my motivation, like you haven't heard enough of that already.
I have decided to write about Lectures, but a certain type, I am going to be chatting to you proper good fellows in about I.T. lessons. Thats right! I.T. Information Technology. That glorious subject.
I.T. lessons are a blessing and a curse. On one hand I find them RIDDICULUSLY easy, and in that sense they are great, but on the other hand.... Where do they find the teachers? Any teacher that has EVER taught me I.T. (NB: I.T. not Computing) I swear has read the instruction manual all the way through and then lived by that.
Back in G.N.V.Q. I.C.T. (that stands for something but I'll be damned if I ever remembered it) at Tudor Grange I swear I was pretty much better then the teacher at I.T. We had a kooky and wacky teacher called Mr. Ireland. Instantly if someone is named after a country you think 'How modest' or 'Ooo Marvel Hero' (See: Captain America) Mr. Ireland was very much the former rather than the latter. He was a not so modest gentleman with an inpressively fast walk, of which could have won marathons, and a fascist sympathiser. We infact made up a song one night, Tommy Potter Dan and I, called Mr. Ireland is a Nazi Stormtrooper (Tommy was the leader of this, taking on the role of both lyricist and musician, we sort of backing sung but still our hearts into it so they were). I think I am trailing off about Mr. Ireland, a subject for another time, since I don't actually, and never actually, hated this man and so cannot put him down in my rant. What I did hate however was how he was worse then me at I.T. When I look for a tutor, a mentor, a wise old man on top of a hill, I don't look to someone who knows basically everything I already know and then a bit less. I want someone I can learn from. Back in I.T. We had a whole lesson on Printing and Saving. I mean... Does everyone not already know that? If they don't then WHY are they taking I.C.T?
In all my years of experiance in I.C.T. I have already known practically everything I have been taught. Obviously you learn different variations of things and thats understandable but I was better left to my own devices.
Today we were given a relatively simple program to use, which some people didn't understand. I can allow that. It's not peoples fault if they joined Psychology and were faced by a computer program. Thats FINE. But when the teacher doesn't understand the program either... Things get a little different. I mean, I figured out this program within a few minutes and finished all 3 tasks about 20 minutes before the end of the lesson while the teacher still ran around trying to deal with Question One. I'd like to point out I dealt with them Correctly!
This is why I do not like I.T. lessons. At All. They are a great chance to doss yes but they are so mindnumbing that I think I actually recline in terms of how well I use computers.
Please excuse the sloppy nature of this post, I have had absolutely no sleep since yesterday. I am very tired. VERY Tired. Please appreciate I won't be thinking right.
Well hop to it!
But moving on, Its now Friday but I missed a Thursdays 'What I hate' and yesterday.. Well.. I really couldn't find anything I hate, nothing at all pissed me off, I woke up embodying such harmony and lust for life that I must have been sickening to even be near let alone speak to... Ok so I wasn't that bad.
So I got to thinking what I could write about... You have to understand I am not an angry person, not a lot can annoy me... PEOPLE can Annoy me, thats another matter, but not a lot in general really annoys me. This is proving a difficult task. However, they say its good to vent, good for the soul, good for your blood level, all that, so lets do it. I thought.. What should I type about? Lectures started this week?, well thats an easy subject, The state of my Kitchen?, I'd sound like a cleanliness freak... but my kitchen is so bad, What about how I actually considered skipping my lessons today on one of my first days back? You know.. Write more about my motivation, like you haven't heard enough of that already.
I have decided to write about Lectures, but a certain type, I am going to be chatting to you proper good fellows in about I.T. lessons. Thats right! I.T. Information Technology. That glorious subject.
I.T. lessons are a blessing and a curse. On one hand I find them RIDDICULUSLY easy, and in that sense they are great, but on the other hand.... Where do they find the teachers? Any teacher that has EVER taught me I.T. (NB: I.T. not Computing) I swear has read the instruction manual all the way through and then lived by that.
Back in G.N.V.Q. I.C.T. (that stands for something but I'll be damned if I ever remembered it) at Tudor Grange I swear I was pretty much better then the teacher at I.T. We had a kooky and wacky teacher called Mr. Ireland. Instantly if someone is named after a country you think 'How modest' or 'Ooo Marvel Hero' (See: Captain America) Mr. Ireland was very much the former rather than the latter. He was a not so modest gentleman with an inpressively fast walk, of which could have won marathons, and a fascist sympathiser. We infact made up a song one night, Tommy Potter Dan and I, called Mr. Ireland is a Nazi Stormtrooper (Tommy was the leader of this, taking on the role of both lyricist and musician, we sort of backing sung but still our hearts into it so they were). I think I am trailing off about Mr. Ireland, a subject for another time, since I don't actually, and never actually, hated this man and so cannot put him down in my rant. What I did hate however was how he was worse then me at I.T. When I look for a tutor, a mentor, a wise old man on top of a hill, I don't look to someone who knows basically everything I already know and then a bit less. I want someone I can learn from. Back in I.T. We had a whole lesson on Printing and Saving. I mean... Does everyone not already know that? If they don't then WHY are they taking I.C.T?
In all my years of experiance in I.C.T. I have already known practically everything I have been taught. Obviously you learn different variations of things and thats understandable but I was better left to my own devices.
Today we were given a relatively simple program to use, which some people didn't understand. I can allow that. It's not peoples fault if they joined Psychology and were faced by a computer program. Thats FINE. But when the teacher doesn't understand the program either... Things get a little different. I mean, I figured out this program within a few minutes and finished all 3 tasks about 20 minutes before the end of the lesson while the teacher still ran around trying to deal with Question One. I'd like to point out I dealt with them Correctly!
This is why I do not like I.T. lessons. At All. They are a great chance to doss yes but they are so mindnumbing that I think I actually recline in terms of how well I use computers.
Please excuse the sloppy nature of this post, I have had absolutely no sleep since yesterday. I am very tired. VERY Tired. Please appreciate I won't be thinking right.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Wake up Neo...
"Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?"
So the Matrix is a film, a work of fiction, but dreams can be quite real that its actually scary, I realised this earlier today. I will often have dreams that I precieve as real as they are just so... normal... And today was one of them.
I hadn't got into bed properly till about 6:00Am as I was too busy either:
A. Updating this blog
B. Updating the Shaun and Andy Project
C. Playing Super Mario Galaxy (just one more star.... fuck it.... lets get another)
Now I am quite used to having strangly vivid and imaginative dreams. The more nosey of you may have noticed my other blog in which I talk about these crazy happenenings. I've only just started them, but I may create a list of the old ones I can remember.
Anyway, back to today. Since I hadn't got to bed till the early hours I was sure I wasn't going to wake up well, I was quite correct on this point. But as Matthew Common, a cheeky young devil from Derby Uni, was waiting for me to get up and go with him to town I was recieving texts and phonecalls galore. Now I read this text, and I sent him a few back
'Can we do it later?'
'Sure'
'I'll text you when I am up then'
Sorted I thought. Be up about 2:00PM or 3:00PM. Enter Dream State..... NOW:
I woke up about 3:00, changed my alarm again, woke up at 4ish... fell back asleep. Didn't from then get up till about 6:00. Text Common to say "The shop is only open another hour, it wont be worth it" and then fell back asleep till about 7:00. I then woke up thinking 'Crap, Will need to eat then will probably be going to the pub at about 8:00' Boy was I wrong. I looked towards my curtains from my bed and saw light shining in...
I had woken up at 2:00. All of that was just a dream. But it had seemed so real. From the text I sent to Common, to the noises I heard outside. It was just crazy. I can tell you it took me a while to get my head around the whole event and work out what was real and what was false.
GGGOOOAAALLL
I have been thinking that I need to really sort out my Goals in life, a list of things I want to achieve.
I did this about a year ago on 43things but it just got a bit silly. So I am going to list things here and may refer back to it in the future. I am going to include a short explaination of them too to help judge why I want them to be done. I also plan on putting in the ones I have already completed.
Red: Incomplete
Yellow: Partially Complete or Made Signifigant Progress Towards
Green: Done
Writing:
Publish a book: As you may have guessed from my Blog I enjoy writing and have always wanted to write. This is partially done as I wrote and published a novella for Vickys birthday. Quite a few errors in it! I want to publish something properly, have it on sale in a bookstore. Not necessarily so people will read my work but so I can say I have
Publish an Article: I want to be featured in a magazine, even if its only once and is a small collumn in a bottom corner. Just to say I have and to keep a clipping.
Publish an Anthology: Again like the novel I would like to publish a series of short stories. I have some ideas, but not nearly enough.
Enter a Writing Competion: Theres a few I am looking at, need to get started on the writing though. Perhaps something from the Shaun and Andy project would one day make a good entry.
Film/Play:
Write a Script: I have had a few Idea's, started writing it, but then failed due to lack of motivation. Hopefully I can get that back on track soon. There was also my short film script which was a bit... meh.
Direct a Film: Almost got there, almost, but when plans were screwed up and someone couldn't make it filming just ceased and never got planned again. Had bought the cammera for £200 and even painted the loft.
Act in a Film: Again this would have happened, see above.
Edit a Film: See above once more.
Other Arts:
Learn an Instrument: I think we should all learn an instrument before we die... and I don't think the recorder I learnt during Reception counted for much.
Gaming:
Attend a Games Convention (e.g E3): With E3 being made smaller the only other chance of getting to a Games Convention is Leipzieg in Germany. Maybe... Probably not though.
Own Every Console: Atari, Amiga, PC, Megadrive, Dreamcast, Nes, Snes, N64, Gamecube, Wii, Playstation, Playstation 2, Playstation 3, Xbox, Xbox 360. Gameboy SP, DS, PSP. Almost, but not quite.
Family and Future:
Get Married: When it comes to the time I will want to settle down, have a wife with whom I shall live happily ever after... Or just to prolong a divorce with
Have Kids: Some day I want Shaun Jnr Running around and causing mayhem, ahh the joys of life... Not to mention the fun that comes with making him ;) (Should this be partially complete perhaps?)
Get a good job: So that I am not stuck in dead end retail work all my life! This is partially done as I am in Uni, but all could fail couldn't it? Got to keep my motivation up and work hard!
Other:
Move out: Already at University and have a house lined up. It's all on track at the moment!
Learn to Drive: This was a big thing for me. It's really a skill pretty much everyone picks up at some point or another but I wanted to complete it before I was 17. Luckily I acheived this. I am quite proud of myself being able to drive and most people who can will remember the time it happened to them and how exciting it is when you can finally go out on the road and do whatever you want.
Get Fit: I need to do this one. It's really quite important. I need to tone up and start eating healthier... but who can resist the goodies and the sitting on your arse all day!
Go to College: So that I can get into Uni!
Go to Uni: Thats done. I am here! My Education is very important to me, I want a good, decent, highpaying job that I actually enjoy!
Sky Dive: Ever since I had a dream about it I have wanted to do it, But I am actually far too scared!
Start an Internet Business: This is something I really want. I want something that I can look back and say 'I made this, people use it, and it's making me money!' Again I don't just want it for the money as, like book writing, I want it to say I have done it and acheived it... Not that the money wouldn't be nice... It's just thinking up the ideas and going about them!
Bloody hell, thats an awful lot. Good thing I am still Young!
I did this about a year ago on 43things but it just got a bit silly. So I am going to list things here and may refer back to it in the future. I am going to include a short explaination of them too to help judge why I want them to be done. I also plan on putting in the ones I have already completed.
Red: Incomplete
Yellow: Partially Complete or Made Signifigant Progress Towards
Green: Done
Writing:
Publish a book: As you may have guessed from my Blog I enjoy writing and have always wanted to write. This is partially done as I wrote and published a novella for Vickys birthday. Quite a few errors in it! I want to publish something properly, have it on sale in a bookstore. Not necessarily so people will read my work but so I can say I have
Publish an Article: I want to be featured in a magazine, even if its only once and is a small collumn in a bottom corner. Just to say I have and to keep a clipping.
Publish an Anthology: Again like the novel I would like to publish a series of short stories. I have some ideas, but not nearly enough.
Enter a Writing Competion: Theres a few I am looking at, need to get started on the writing though. Perhaps something from the Shaun and Andy project would one day make a good entry.
Film/Play:
Write a Script: I have had a few Idea's, started writing it, but then failed due to lack of motivation. Hopefully I can get that back on track soon. There was also my short film script which was a bit... meh.
Direct a Film: Almost got there, almost, but when plans were screwed up and someone couldn't make it filming just ceased and never got planned again. Had bought the cammera for £200 and even painted the loft.
Act in a Film: Again this would have happened, see above.
Edit a Film: See above once more.
Other Arts:
Learn an Instrument: I think we should all learn an instrument before we die... and I don't think the recorder I learnt during Reception counted for much.
Gaming:
Attend a Games Convention (e.g E3): With E3 being made smaller the only other chance of getting to a Games Convention is Leipzieg in Germany. Maybe... Probably not though.
Own Every Console: Atari, Amiga, PC, Megadrive, Dreamcast, Nes, Snes, N64, Gamecube, Wii, Playstation, Playstation 2, Playstation 3, Xbox, Xbox 360. Gameboy SP, DS, PSP. Almost, but not quite.
Family and Future:
Get Married: When it comes to the time I will want to settle down, have a wife with whom I shall live happily ever after... Or just to prolong a divorce with
Have Kids: Some day I want Shaun Jnr Running around and causing mayhem, ahh the joys of life... Not to mention the fun that comes with making him ;) (Should this be partially complete perhaps?)
Get a good job: So that I am not stuck in dead end retail work all my life! This is partially done as I am in Uni, but all could fail couldn't it? Got to keep my motivation up and work hard!
Other:
Move out: Already at University and have a house lined up. It's all on track at the moment!
Learn to Drive: This was a big thing for me. It's really a skill pretty much everyone picks up at some point or another but I wanted to complete it before I was 17. Luckily I acheived this. I am quite proud of myself being able to drive and most people who can will remember the time it happened to them and how exciting it is when you can finally go out on the road and do whatever you want.
Get Fit: I need to do this one. It's really quite important. I need to tone up and start eating healthier... but who can resist the goodies and the sitting on your arse all day!
Go to College: So that I can get into Uni!
Go to Uni: Thats done. I am here! My Education is very important to me, I want a good, decent, highpaying job that I actually enjoy!
Sky Dive: Ever since I had a dream about it I have wanted to do it, But I am actually far too scared!
Start an Internet Business: This is something I really want. I want something that I can look back and say 'I made this, people use it, and it's making me money!' Again I don't just want it for the money as, like book writing, I want it to say I have done it and acheived it... Not that the money wouldn't be nice... It's just thinking up the ideas and going about them!
Bloody hell, thats an awful lot. Good thing I am still Young!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
The Project
In a daring attempt to save our creativity my friend Andy and I have challeneged our imaginations and literary abilities to some writing. We are hoping it is something not only us but all of you can Enjoy.
I have set up a blog for it here.
Basically we have a set theme each week. Week one for Instance was Romance. Now between the two Sundays we had to write a piece of Romantic Fiction and then by the Monday we had to have read each others piece and given it a 'likes and dislikes' style review. This way we will challenge ourselves, not only to do more writing, but also to write in new areas that we haven't written before. Also, the critism is going to be quite helpful as we will learn just what to try and change. It might be hard at first, critising each piece, but after awhile we should be able to talk quite harshly about each other.
It's part of my grand scheme to save myself from dwindling into nothingness and to boost my creativity. I need this! So please, if you are a friend of mine or even someone who has happened upon my blog and wishes to read new stories/poetry/literature each week then please keep track of it. If your a friend I should hope you would do this! You should be able to leave annoymous comments on these blogs without signing up, if that is the case, we would both be grateful if you could leave some critisms on our work either on this blog, our joint blog, or on our Deviantart.
Thank you in advance for those of you that do want to keep track. You will be a great help to us!
I have set up a blog for it here.
Basically we have a set theme each week. Week one for Instance was Romance. Now between the two Sundays we had to write a piece of Romantic Fiction and then by the Monday we had to have read each others piece and given it a 'likes and dislikes' style review. This way we will challenge ourselves, not only to do more writing, but also to write in new areas that we haven't written before. Also, the critism is going to be quite helpful as we will learn just what to try and change. It might be hard at first, critising each piece, but after awhile we should be able to talk quite harshly about each other.
It's part of my grand scheme to save myself from dwindling into nothingness and to boost my creativity. I need this! So please, if you are a friend of mine or even someone who has happened upon my blog and wishes to read new stories/poetry/literature each week then please keep track of it. If your a friend I should hope you would do this! You should be able to leave annoymous comments on these blogs without signing up, if that is the case, we would both be grateful if you could leave some critisms on our work either on this blog, our joint blog, or on our Deviantart.
Thank you in advance for those of you that do want to keep track. You will be a great help to us!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I Dont Like Thursdays...
Tell me why!
In approximatly two hours from now, from the time I am starting this, I have an exam. Bloody brilliant ay? I absolutely hate exams, I get stressed right near the deadline, not anywhere near before, and I can't revise even if someone put a gun to my head. I just look at the papers I have and think 'I know this... I bloody learnt it in a lesson' but I can't recall it without some sort of cue. It's awful. It means I get bored reading it, because I feel I know it, but I don't know it properly. I'll update this later after my exam.
This leads me to start a new project for this blog. I have my general thoughts about general subjects but every Thursday I am going to try and get out a RANT. I hate Thursdays. Nothing good has ever happened to me on a thursday. I will show you:
Thursdays were the day of my Karate lessons, which I hated.
Thursdays were my longest day at college.
Thursdays ARE the first day of my Uni week. (yes, I am only in for two days)
Thursdays are the day after Wednesday, a day I like since its like an island in the sea of the working week; it says "Heres halfway! Not long to go!". Thursdays are also the day before Friday, which is that last day and has, possibly, the greatest evening of alltime, therefore Thursday is an unnecessary bridge between two of my favourite days.
Thursday is TODAY and the day my Exam is on. One exam, in the whole term, the first exam ever at University and where does it fall on?
All my coursework last term was in for a Friday, but being good, I wanted to get it in before the deadline. What day was that? THURSDAY!
Thursdays, when I have time off and holiday, tend to be the most boring of days.
As you can see, I don't much like Thursdays. The only real good things that have happened on Thursdays are when Vicky has come up from London to see me, two of these times have been on the dreaded Thursday. I'd like to see Bob Geldoff write about them, "I don't like Thursdays" could be the sequal. It would probably make me hate them more...
EDIT
The Exam went... Ok. First of all they are the same as the college and secondary school exams. You sit down, they check your card to make sure you are who you are, and then you carry out the exam. The only real difference was you didn't have an alloted seat. I was completely mind-boggled when I walked in as to where I was meant to sit, till I noticed people tended to sit with mates rather then anywhere specific.
There is also evidence that my theory, that of Thursdays being Bollox, is correct. For instance:
I only found out it was an Open Exam Fifteen minutes before. Meaning I could have brought some notes.
We had to draw a GRAPH on Page two. A GRAPH. I had no idea I was expected to draw a graph, let alone what type of exam to draw. It's quite crazy.
Question number 4 was missing... Why? Typo? It was quite bizzarre. I felt I should ask... But then thought fuck it and carried on.
All in all, it went quite quick, which was good, but I probably screwed up. Stupid Thursdays!
In approximatly two hours from now, from the time I am starting this, I have an exam. Bloody brilliant ay? I absolutely hate exams, I get stressed right near the deadline, not anywhere near before, and I can't revise even if someone put a gun to my head. I just look at the papers I have and think 'I know this... I bloody learnt it in a lesson' but I can't recall it without some sort of cue. It's awful. It means I get bored reading it, because I feel I know it, but I don't know it properly. I'll update this later after my exam.
This leads me to start a new project for this blog. I have my general thoughts about general subjects but every Thursday I am going to try and get out a RANT. I hate Thursdays. Nothing good has ever happened to me on a thursday. I will show you:
Thursdays were the day of my Karate lessons, which I hated.
Thursdays were my longest day at college.
Thursdays ARE the first day of my Uni week. (yes, I am only in for two days)
Thursdays are the day after Wednesday, a day I like since its like an island in the sea of the working week; it says "Heres halfway! Not long to go!". Thursdays are also the day before Friday, which is that last day and has, possibly, the greatest evening of alltime, therefore Thursday is an unnecessary bridge between two of my favourite days.
Thursday is TODAY and the day my Exam is on. One exam, in the whole term, the first exam ever at University and where does it fall on?
All my coursework last term was in for a Friday, but being good, I wanted to get it in before the deadline. What day was that? THURSDAY!
Thursdays, when I have time off and holiday, tend to be the most boring of days.
As you can see, I don't much like Thursdays. The only real good things that have happened on Thursdays are when Vicky has come up from London to see me, two of these times have been on the dreaded Thursday. I'd like to see Bob Geldoff write about them, "I don't like Thursdays" could be the sequal. It would probably make me hate them more...
EDIT
The Exam went... Ok. First of all they are the same as the college and secondary school exams. You sit down, they check your card to make sure you are who you are, and then you carry out the exam. The only real difference was you didn't have an alloted seat. I was completely mind-boggled when I walked in as to where I was meant to sit, till I noticed people tended to sit with mates rather then anywhere specific.
There is also evidence that my theory, that of Thursdays being Bollox, is correct. For instance:
I only found out it was an Open Exam Fifteen minutes before. Meaning I could have brought some notes.
We had to draw a GRAPH on Page two. A GRAPH. I had no idea I was expected to draw a graph, let alone what type of exam to draw. It's quite crazy.
Question number 4 was missing... Why? Typo? It was quite bizzarre. I felt I should ask... But then thought fuck it and carried on.
All in all, it went quite quick, which was good, but I probably screwed up. Stupid Thursdays!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
A home in any other house...
So Today I moved back to University. It took about an Hour to drive here, but that was by speeding down the motorway which can be dangerous! So don't do it! It actually took longer to unpack the back of my car then it did to get here, mainly because I am a slow and undermotivated worker whereas in a car you can't really slack. I forgot my laptop, my pride-and-joy, so my parents had to bring it up. How stupid can I be? Good thing I got it though, I have to revise for Thursday... Yay. Imagine if I had an even bigger excuse not to revise... would hardly help me.
Anyway. Today we also, hopefully, have bought a house... For me and a few University chums to live in and pay rent towards for the rest of our stay here. Now this house is NICE. It is much better then any student house, more space for a start, and it also feels a lot more homely. I can imagine myself living there quite happily. It's almost as big as my house at home... well... Not quite but it feels big. It has a proper hallway, landing, Kitchen, Lounge, Bedrooms, so on and so forth. The only problem I can forsee is the size of the bedrooms for the other housemates, their a tad... Small... well... Not small small, I am not damning them to the space under the stairs like a poormans harry potter, but their not grandeous. I reckon though, since the house itself is so nice, that we will not spend as much time in our rooms. Our rooms at Uni are not just bedrooms but also lounges and, to some extent, dining areas. With a house this wont be the case. We can sit downstairs, watch TV, and eat in the kitchen. All happy families.
Another plus is it's going to be fourbedroom. Theres currently three bedrooms and a study, which can easily be converted into a room. That means four of us.
Another plus is the rent. I am not sure just how much it will be at the moment... And I wont give any details incase my fellow lodgers are reading and get hyped up about cheapness or depressed about expense but my parents are looking to do it 'all inclusive'. Unlike a bed'n'breakfast where it means we will be cooked for it means we will enjoy the luxory of paying ONE fee. The rent. The rest, the water bill, gas bill, telephone bill, internet bill, will all be included and taken into account within the rent. Personally, If it costs a bit extra then a normal rented place, but is ten times better in how it looks and, more importantly, feels then I would rather that extra cost.
Another plus is... Have I said how NICE this place is? I mean... I have been to student houses before and, granted it was in the middle of a party with lots of people, but they have seemed a little small, with a little kitchen, and little hallways, just very... cheap. This brings me to another plus...
Another plus is that my Parents are the landlords. This is a double edged sword. On one side... I wouldn't want to see my Dad after someone upset him... On the other side, I am their son, their spoilt only-child, and they wouldn't want me to live in a crap house... Meaning that, though the house is already NICE, they will ensure it's got decent furniture and so on. Other landlords most probably don't give a damn as long as it meets standards and they get rent, but my parents will have an emotional envestment, me, and will try harder. (Not to mean that they will be there everyday sorting out problems but just meaning initially they will set it out quite nicely)
Another plus is the houses area... Now this could come as a Minus... depending on whom you ask. The house is in a quiet location, with no real traffic noise or noisey neighbours. However it is also just literally down the road from my current residence, meaning close to Town and Uni and is also close to the other houses being rented to students. Theres a few roads souly full of Student Housing. We are close to that.
Another plus is that this house has big common rooms. The kitchen is VERY nice. It's wonderful. A lot better then any kitchen in Student housing/halls of residence. The kitchen is also very spacious, rather then these narrow galley ones. There is also a table to eat at. How quaint. As for the Lounge, well, what can I say? It is almost as big as mine at home. Room enough for sofa's and chairs, tv's and console's, by the time we are done it could look like aladins cave, all decorated with golden treasures.
Now the minus'.
One minus is that my parents are the landlords, meaning I am not actually away from them. On the plus side they can't complain anymore that my room is untidy, as Its nothing to do with them, but on the other side when I have a problem I have to go running back to mommy/daddy... Because their the landlords. Also theres the fact that if my parents realise something BAD is happening. Such as were not really looking after the house, then my dad will most probably blow steam out his ears.
Another minus is the area. As I said before its close to where all the parties will be, while being in a quiet location. The minus' here are that the area is currently quiet... so would like to stay that way. The next door neighbour is a wife with a husband and kids, not exactly the party types. Also, most the people around there are families too. So no noise again. The area is also not on the row of student houses. Meaning that we don't have the 'student community' with all our ex-halls friends. Though they are not too far to visit, five minutes away at a quick walk, we are kind of out the loop.
Another minus is the size of the bedrooms. Now the master bedroom is great... But its mine! haha. But for the others the rooms are... pleasantly sized. Their not extravagant, and two are on the small side. Now I don't know how much this will effect people living there, but if it was me I wouldn't care so much. Who knows? Maybe people are fussy? Personally, as I have said above, I believe we will spend more time in the lounge then in our rooms. Its more like a home then it is like a Uni Dorm.
There.
3 minus' which arn't very big, and 6 big plus'.
What more could you want?
Anyway. Today we also, hopefully, have bought a house... For me and a few University chums to live in and pay rent towards for the rest of our stay here. Now this house is NICE. It is much better then any student house, more space for a start, and it also feels a lot more homely. I can imagine myself living there quite happily. It's almost as big as my house at home... well... Not quite but it feels big. It has a proper hallway, landing, Kitchen, Lounge, Bedrooms, so on and so forth. The only problem I can forsee is the size of the bedrooms for the other housemates, their a tad... Small... well... Not small small, I am not damning them to the space under the stairs like a poormans harry potter, but their not grandeous. I reckon though, since the house itself is so nice, that we will not spend as much time in our rooms. Our rooms at Uni are not just bedrooms but also lounges and, to some extent, dining areas. With a house this wont be the case. We can sit downstairs, watch TV, and eat in the kitchen. All happy families.
Another plus is it's going to be fourbedroom. Theres currently three bedrooms and a study, which can easily be converted into a room. That means four of us.
Another plus is the rent. I am not sure just how much it will be at the moment... And I wont give any details incase my fellow lodgers are reading and get hyped up about cheapness or depressed about expense but my parents are looking to do it 'all inclusive'. Unlike a bed'n'breakfast where it means we will be cooked for it means we will enjoy the luxory of paying ONE fee. The rent. The rest, the water bill, gas bill, telephone bill, internet bill, will all be included and taken into account within the rent. Personally, If it costs a bit extra then a normal rented place, but is ten times better in how it looks and, more importantly, feels then I would rather that extra cost.
Another plus is... Have I said how NICE this place is? I mean... I have been to student houses before and, granted it was in the middle of a party with lots of people, but they have seemed a little small, with a little kitchen, and little hallways, just very... cheap. This brings me to another plus...
Another plus is that my Parents are the landlords. This is a double edged sword. On one side... I wouldn't want to see my Dad after someone upset him... On the other side, I am their son, their spoilt only-child, and they wouldn't want me to live in a crap house... Meaning that, though the house is already NICE, they will ensure it's got decent furniture and so on. Other landlords most probably don't give a damn as long as it meets standards and they get rent, but my parents will have an emotional envestment, me, and will try harder. (Not to mean that they will be there everyday sorting out problems but just meaning initially they will set it out quite nicely)
Another plus is the houses area... Now this could come as a Minus... depending on whom you ask. The house is in a quiet location, with no real traffic noise or noisey neighbours. However it is also just literally down the road from my current residence, meaning close to Town and Uni and is also close to the other houses being rented to students. Theres a few roads souly full of Student Housing. We are close to that.
Another plus is that this house has big common rooms. The kitchen is VERY nice. It's wonderful. A lot better then any kitchen in Student housing/halls of residence. The kitchen is also very spacious, rather then these narrow galley ones. There is also a table to eat at. How quaint. As for the Lounge, well, what can I say? It is almost as big as mine at home. Room enough for sofa's and chairs, tv's and console's, by the time we are done it could look like aladins cave, all decorated with golden treasures.
Now the minus'.
One minus is that my parents are the landlords, meaning I am not actually away from them. On the plus side they can't complain anymore that my room is untidy, as Its nothing to do with them, but on the other side when I have a problem I have to go running back to mommy/daddy... Because their the landlords. Also theres the fact that if my parents realise something BAD is happening. Such as were not really looking after the house, then my dad will most probably blow steam out his ears.
Another minus is the area. As I said before its close to where all the parties will be, while being in a quiet location. The minus' here are that the area is currently quiet... so would like to stay that way. The next door neighbour is a wife with a husband and kids, not exactly the party types. Also, most the people around there are families too. So no noise again. The area is also not on the row of student houses. Meaning that we don't have the 'student community' with all our ex-halls friends. Though they are not too far to visit, five minutes away at a quick walk, we are kind of out the loop.
Another minus is the size of the bedrooms. Now the master bedroom is great... But its mine! haha. But for the others the rooms are... pleasantly sized. Their not extravagant, and two are on the small side. Now I don't know how much this will effect people living there, but if it was me I wouldn't care so much. Who knows? Maybe people are fussy? Personally, as I have said above, I believe we will spend more time in the lounge then in our rooms. Its more like a home then it is like a Uni Dorm.
There.
3 minus' which arn't very big, and 6 big plus'.
What more could you want?
Friday, January 11, 2008
Gifted and Talented
I've been thinking about these 'Talents' people have.
On the little old channel they call E4 a new wave of Big Brother started a week ago today. Now, I've always been a fan of NORMAL Big Brother but the Celebrity one usually got on my nerves... Luckily this year its been replaced with 'BigBrother Celebrity Hijack' and the contestants are not the celebrities we saw once before but my age group, between 18 - 21, who all have a 'Talent'. Theres a singer/songwriter, an artist, the chairman of the Scottish youth parliament, a race car driver, and so on. (All, with details, can be found here)Theres even an exceptionally fit circus performer who is so flexable, born in where I live, and has a wonderful eastern European accent...... *fades off into fantasy* Wait? Where was I? So these are people, all in my age group I stress, are Talented and moving their way sharply up in the world. Where does that leave me?
These are people to whom I have a deal of respect. When I was younger, and frightfully naive I might add, I used to believe that I would be able to get a book published by the time I was 18. I am 18 now... So where does that leave me? What I had failed to notice, back in my youth, was that I have an incredible lack of motivation that doesn't quite aid me in me quest for publication. I also didn't give due attention to me being shit within the literacy field. Reading back what I used to write I get this awful cringe in the pit of my stomach. It was alright for my age I suppose, but when my lack of motivation took over my ambition, and all those other words ending in "tion", my skills didn't ascend further but sort of dwindled backwards at a steady pace. Thats what this whole blog shenanigan is for. If I have a goal to achieve, if I am doing it for someone other then myself and receive some encouragement I should be able to do something worthwhile. I am going to be entering a few writing competitions too. I especially liked the look of this one where you join up before hand and then on the date your given the subject and 24 hours to write about it. I work best under pressure.
On the little old channel they call E4 a new wave of Big Brother started a week ago today. Now, I've always been a fan of NORMAL Big Brother but the Celebrity one usually got on my nerves... Luckily this year its been replaced with 'BigBrother Celebrity Hijack' and the contestants are not the celebrities we saw once before but my age group, between 18 - 21, who all have a 'Talent'. Theres a singer/songwriter, an artist, the chairman of the Scottish youth parliament, a race car driver, and so on. (All, with details, can be found here)Theres even an exceptionally fit circus performer who is so flexable, born in where I live, and has a wonderful eastern European accent...... *fades off into fantasy* Wait? Where was I? So these are people, all in my age group I stress, are Talented and moving their way sharply up in the world. Where does that leave me?
These are people to whom I have a deal of respect. When I was younger, and frightfully naive I might add, I used to believe that I would be able to get a book published by the time I was 18. I am 18 now... So where does that leave me? What I had failed to notice, back in my youth, was that I have an incredible lack of motivation that doesn't quite aid me in me quest for publication. I also didn't give due attention to me being shit within the literacy field. Reading back what I used to write I get this awful cringe in the pit of my stomach. It was alright for my age I suppose, but when my lack of motivation took over my ambition, and all those other words ending in "tion", my skills didn't ascend further but sort of dwindled backwards at a steady pace. Thats what this whole blog shenanigan is for. If I have a goal to achieve, if I am doing it for someone other then myself and receive some encouragement I should be able to do something worthwhile. I am going to be entering a few writing competitions too. I especially liked the look of this one where you join up before hand and then on the date your given the subject and 24 hours to write about it. I work best under pressure.
I think 'Talents' come to people, you just get these Naturals who pretty much just 'get it' when it comes to their subject. Whether this is science, maths, the arts, sport, or whatever else there is out there, I think you just get the 'naturals'. For them practice makes perfect, but they had a sort of handicap in favor to begin with, whereas everyone else has to practice just to be 'alright' at it. Personally I'd love to be able to draw and you get these natural painters and sketchers. Writing comes a bit more naturally to me, (please note 'bit') I've never really written anything I am truly proud of but other people have liked some of my stuff but they could just be being nice, or swaying in my favour because I am a mate.
I suppose I am thinking about this really because what have I really achieved in my life? A purple belt in Karate, which I took for Seven years and was still a porky kid, and two years of Drama school, which I went off after my friend left when I really should have carried on (though it probably wouldn't have aided what little masculinity I have). See what I mean about motivation? I don't have the... 'stick with it-ness', the perseverance.
I mean one of the guys on this BigBrother started his business before he was 10 and is now, at 19, running an internet company with a turnover of £200,000 a year... Wow. I have always wanted one of these internet businesses which just take off but I can't see any niches. Maybe one day an idea may hit me, but until then, I am too unmotivated to look. I really need to do something about this motivation... I will you know, I am determined to get my ass up and achieve something.
If practice makes perfect, I'm going to need practice. For that I need motivation, determination, and perseverance. I give my electronic signature right here on this blog. I am going to try for a change. If I don't, please feel free to laugh and ridicule me, it might help me push forward... or send me on a spiral of depression. Either is a change.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Under the influence...
Today I have been thinking about Influence.
I have always been easily influenced. It's nothing I hide.
If you told me a band was great, revolutionary, and should be held in the utmost esteem I would probably believe you... without even knowing the bands name or hearing a song they had done. My mind thinks, "why would this not be true?"
I would equally come back the next day and tell you they are rubbish, "why?" you might ask, and I would reply, "Because my friend told me".
This example sounds a little extreme, which is probably because it is a bit, but the actuality is that it lies in personal fact. It's probably a good thing that I haven't had the chance to Vote or get roped into any political regimes or it might go something like "Oh you say your the best party? Your going to change Britain? Well I will jolly well come along and join this BNP of which you speak!" (See: Nazi's)
I think the reason behind me giving into influence is simply that I have always strove to be accepted. I always put on an innocent face when being confronted by people for the first time, I hate first impressions, their possibly the worst thing in the world for me. If I meet someone for the first time its not unusual for me to start threating over what this person is running through their mind. "He's weird, he's strange, he's boring, he talks to much, he talks to little, he has no interests, why should I like him? who actually is he? when will he go away?" when they could, quite possibly, be thinking the exact same thing, or have just thought I am 'nice guy', or perhaps they didn't really care about me. NB: This 'stranger' can be anyone, even someone I will only meet once in my life, yes I care that much
Now in contrast to this I myself am quite a judging person and it's probably that which got me into Psychology. I like to think, and heres my modesty in the matter, that I am good at 'getting' people. Put me in a room for a while with someone and I like to think I would come out knowing pretty much how they tick. My mother thinks she does this so it might be genetic (though Mothers often think they know things which they quite clearly don't. They have this sort of motherly method of analysing reality where they think it's impossible that their Son is open to drugs, has had sex before marriage, or has in fact got a mind of their own that has entirely different values in some respects). So far nobody has really surprised me that much. When sitting there and thinking "This person isn't very nice" it doesn't take long for them to prove that my thoughts are quite correct. You know the moments when people say "Well I never expected him to do a thing like that!" I am normally thinking "I knew he was going to do that right from the start". Perhaps I am not as gullible as I first thought... Who knows? This doesn't sound at all modest and I hate sounding big headed but... thats what I think. So I suppose it that sense we are all quite easily influenced. Milgram, Ashe, and Zimbardo would probably back me up on this. Them being intellectual psychology type fella's. Most people conform, few deviate. Simple.
I am usually the first in line to conform (though Churches have never roped me in). Sometimes I think "Cor! What fun! Fighting the system! Wish I could do that! Down with Capitalism!" But often I just shake my head thinking "I actually quite like Capitalism". I am sticking to that. Obviously things we can do better, we need better health care, education, and treatment of the lower classes but I don't think we need to go all Karl Marx about things. We need a bit of a compromise. Maybe Hedonism, I quite like that Idea of pleasure seeking. Though a more communal version. If someone finds pleasure in breaking someones face they should find kinship in someone who finds pleasure in having their face broke, rather then someone who isn't totally into the idea. Freud would have a feild day with Hedonism, giving into the Ego and all that jazz.
I have always been easily influenced. It's nothing I hide.
If you told me a band was great, revolutionary, and should be held in the utmost esteem I would probably believe you... without even knowing the bands name or hearing a song they had done. My mind thinks, "why would this not be true?"
I would equally come back the next day and tell you they are rubbish, "why?" you might ask, and I would reply, "Because my friend told me".
It may, however, take more then a brief statement to believe this bad were revolutionary.
This example sounds a little extreme, which is probably because it is a bit, but the actuality is that it lies in personal fact. It's probably a good thing that I haven't had the chance to Vote or get roped into any political regimes or it might go something like "Oh you say your the best party? Your going to change Britain? Well I will jolly well come along and join this BNP of which you speak!" (See: Nazi's)
Yeh!... Wait, What were our political ideologies again?
I think the reason behind me giving into influence is simply that I have always strove to be accepted. I always put on an innocent face when being confronted by people for the first time, I hate first impressions, their possibly the worst thing in the world for me. If I meet someone for the first time its not unusual for me to start threating over what this person is running through their mind. "He's weird, he's strange, he's boring, he talks to much, he talks to little, he has no interests, why should I like him? who actually is he? when will he go away?" when they could, quite possibly, be thinking the exact same thing, or have just thought I am 'nice guy', or perhaps they didn't really care about me. NB: This 'stranger' can be anyone, even someone I will only meet once in my life, yes I care that much
Not quite the Stranger I meant.
Now in contrast to this I myself am quite a judging person and it's probably that which got me into Psychology. I like to think, and heres my modesty in the matter, that I am good at 'getting' people. Put me in a room for a while with someone and I like to think I would come out knowing pretty much how they tick. My mother thinks she does this so it might be genetic (though Mothers often think they know things which they quite clearly don't. They have this sort of motherly method of analysing reality where they think it's impossible that their Son is open to drugs, has had sex before marriage, or has in fact got a mind of their own that has entirely different values in some respects). So far nobody has really surprised me that much. When sitting there and thinking "This person isn't very nice" it doesn't take long for them to prove that my thoughts are quite correct. You know the moments when people say "Well I never expected him to do a thing like that!" I am normally thinking "I knew he was going to do that right from the start". Perhaps I am not as gullible as I first thought... Who knows? This doesn't sound at all modest and I hate sounding big headed but... thats what I think. So I suppose it that sense we are all quite easily influenced. Milgram, Ashe, and Zimbardo would probably back me up on this. Them being intellectual psychology type fella's. Most people conform, few deviate. Simple.
I am usually the first in line to conform (though Churches have never roped me in). Sometimes I think "Cor! What fun! Fighting the system! Wish I could do that! Down with Capitalism!" But often I just shake my head thinking "I actually quite like Capitalism". I am sticking to that. Obviously things we can do better, we need better health care, education, and treatment of the lower classes but I don't think we need to go all Karl Marx about things. We need a bit of a compromise. Maybe Hedonism, I quite like that Idea of pleasure seeking. Though a more communal version. If someone finds pleasure in breaking someones face they should find kinship in someone who finds pleasure in having their face broke, rather then someone who isn't totally into the idea. Freud would have a feild day with Hedonism, giving into the Ego and all that jazz.
Karl Marx: Big fan of Capitalism, take it from me
What was I blogging about? Influence? Yeh... Trailed off into Comformity, which is a type of Influence. A social one. I really should stop going off tangent, but then again, its just that I am under the influence of blogging.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Sleeping it off
Today I have been thinking about Sleep Patterns. My sleep patterns are pretty hectic. They always have been. Ever since I was a wee nipper I used to try every excuse in the book to stay up downstairs watching TV and when failing that I would sit up in bed and make up stories with my stuffed animals. I suppose I always had a vivid imagination and the blood of a story teller. Thats probably also why I couldn't get to sleep.
The leading member of my motley group of thespians
At night time my mind buzzes and my imagination overflows (My imagination, not my motivation, its all well and good for thinking up plots but it never gets work done). In my head I will often think up narrative and think 'By jove, THAT sounds like a literary magnum opus' and then in the morning I will have completely forgotten it and go back to writing the most obscene of drivel. Anyway, were going off course here. I want to talk about sleep patterns.
A pattern I don't recommend
Personally I don't have a sleep pattern, I don't think I ever did. As soon as my parents put a TV in my bedroom, and I had access to headphones, 9:00 bedtimes became 2:00 in the morning. Not to mention this TV had a VHS player (what an ancient and distant technology that is now) and I remember watching "Ace Ventura" and "The Mask" till 3:00 or 4:00 when I had to be up at 8:00. Oh the shame of it!
The leading member of my motley group of thespiansAt night time my mind buzzes and my imagination overflows (My imagination, not my motivation, its all well and good for thinking up plots but it never gets work done). In my head I will often think up narrative and think 'By jove, THAT sounds like a literary magnum opus' and then in the morning I will have completely forgotten it and go back to writing the most obscene of drivel. Anyway, were going off course here. I want to talk about sleep patterns.
A pattern I don't recommendPersonally I don't have a sleep pattern, I don't think I ever did. As soon as my parents put a TV in my bedroom, and I had access to headphones, 9:00 bedtimes became 2:00 in the morning. Not to mention this TV had a VHS player (what an ancient and distant technology that is now) and I remember watching "Ace Ventura" and "The Mask" till 3:00 or 4:00 when I had to be up at 8:00. Oh the shame of it!
If only he knew what his movies were doing to my young and fragile bodyclock
Since University this lack of sleep pattern isn't so much recommended as enforced. Clubbing is practically backed by martial law, which doesn't bother me since I love it. Since coming back for Christmas I have been up till around 6:00-8:00 in the morning just reading. Either re-reading "Night Watch" by Terry Pratchett, my favorite author, or the wonderful "My Booky Wook" By Russell Brand. I recommend both.
A fantastic booky wook
Last night I pulled an All-Nighter and received absolutely no sleep. Its common practice with us Student-Esque chaps. At about 4:00 - 5:00, if your up at 8:00, you enter what I lovingly name the 'PONR', or Point of No Return. Once your there if you sleep you will over sleep, or I will, and so theres not much point going to bed. I had the day off today, so It didn't really matter what time I went to sleep, but I thought, "I may as well stay awake, look, the little birds outside encourage it!"
But around 1:00 or 2:00 in the afternoon I started feeling a little tired and decided to nap, which lasted about 2 hours since my father woke me up, thinking I had been asleep all day. Now at this point I was ready to die. I felt HORRIBLE. (You must realise I don't drink Coffee or have any real intake of Caffeine) and I woke up for tea looking like Death's own fashion and consultant.
I get what your going for here, but could we maybe try a bit of colour?
You may think this proves that I do have some kind of sleep pattern as it didn't like being awake all night... Well your wrong! After some sort of sustenance I was back sitting at this PC and watching videos on YouTube. And reading. And then watching Big Brother. And then Reading. and I was up till 1:00am again before I thought... "I really need to catch up on that ole sleep or else I may decline into self-induced insomnia". I can't see the doctor recommeding it somehow. I am reminded of the experiment that some psychology type people induced where a guy was awake for 11 days. He hallucinated thinking his shoelaces were spiders. (I can see it now. "Want Vivid Hallucinations? Don't want Salvia or LSD? Try sleep deprivation!")
I can't wait till I am in the future with a 9:00 - 5:00 job. I am going to find it so hard structuring my day. Who wakes up before 12:00, I mean really.....
A fantastic booky wookLast night I pulled an All-Nighter and received absolutely no sleep. Its common practice with us Student-Esque chaps. At about 4:00 - 5:00, if your up at 8:00, you enter what I lovingly name the 'PONR', or Point of No Return. Once your there if you sleep you will over sleep, or I will, and so theres not much point going to bed. I had the day off today, so It didn't really matter what time I went to sleep, but I thought, "I may as well stay awake, look, the little birds outside encourage it!"
OI, YOU, ITS MORNIN'!
But around 1:00 or 2:00 in the afternoon I started feeling a little tired and decided to nap, which lasted about 2 hours since my father woke me up, thinking I had been asleep all day. Now at this point I was ready to die. I felt HORRIBLE. (You must realise I don't drink Coffee or have any real intake of Caffeine) and I woke up for tea looking like Death's own fashion and consultant.
I get what your going for here, but could we maybe try a bit of colour?You may think this proves that I do have some kind of sleep pattern as it didn't like being awake all night... Well your wrong! After some sort of sustenance I was back sitting at this PC and watching videos on YouTube. And reading. And then watching Big Brother. And then Reading. and I was up till 1:00am again before I thought... "I really need to catch up on that ole sleep or else I may decline into self-induced insomnia". I can't see the doctor recommeding it somehow. I am reminded of the experiment that some psychology type people induced where a guy was awake for 11 days. He hallucinated thinking his shoelaces were spiders. (I can see it now. "Want Vivid Hallucinations? Don't want Salvia or LSD? Try sleep deprivation!")
I can't wait till I am in the future with a 9:00 - 5:00 job. I am going to find it so hard structuring my day. Who wakes up before 12:00, I mean really.....
Monday, January 7, 2008
Hair today....
Today I have been thinking about: Hair!
Thats right folks, Hair! Long Hair!
The offending article. Modeled by me.
Its a subject that I've held in a great deal of consideration recently since I recently went from extremely long hair which reached down my back to short hair! And personally it was a great experiance. Most people I know who cut their hair have looked better for it (Dan from before), thats not to say I hated my appearance with long hair, I did like it, but it took SO much hassle to keep right as many of your girls and other long haired fellows will appreciate.
Now this got me thinking to how hair can really change what people think of you. After shaving my full head of hair and the removal of my furred chin (see: Beard) I received many a compliment from many a gender who were of many an age. I was told it looked so much better, I looked my age, I looked much more 'acceptable'. Acceptable was the one that stuck out, in this society looks account for a lot, whether people want to admit it or not, so obviously you want to provide people with the right look that they can access you with, rather then refusing to make your acquaintance and walk off away. Before I looked 'Metal' which is what I was going for in my earlier years. I was into music that other people weren't, me and my friends, we liked it heavy so you could headbang, strum your air guitar, roar and shout! But this wasn't me anymore. I still liked the genre ofcourse but my music tastes, in my old age, had broadened significantly and I reincorporated practically every genre into my tastes. Call me greedy but I loved it all. I no longer wanted people to think I liked one Genre which is only a mere shade on the musical palette.
A bad photo of the side of my new doo. Performed with bed hair!
In one way it could be said I was 'conforming' to the standard of everyday people. Though conforming to 'can't be arsed' and 'need a change' were more my thing. In a certain way I was conforming, I wanted acceptance, I wanted to build new friendships and be liked by all, but in another I am an inside insurgent, I can catch people off guard with my musical selection and make them think 'oo-er' as I cross the controversial tunes of Heavy Metal and enter modern Pop. Also, how am I to define myself as 'different from the average person' If I am not first an average person, surely I shouldn't be set apart from them merely by looks, it should be my personality and character that breaks me free. Most people I know who like long hair on men say its because its this 'pulling away from the system', now I wasn't aware I was in the matrix and taken the wrong pill. "Thanks Morpheus, this will grow my hair big and strong now". I think it doesn't really matter what you look like as long as your personality remains intact to who you are, If you want long hair to fit in with your favorite bands, do it, I know I did. But I have found you reach a certain point where your happy to just be you.
That dashing young Scamp, Me.
Hair plays a vital role in what we think of people, it's part of fashion, and part of our confidence. I feel a lot more confident with shorter hair and personally I think I look loads better, which is all that matters right?
Thats right folks, Hair! Long Hair!
The offending article. Modeled by me.Its a subject that I've held in a great deal of consideration recently since I recently went from extremely long hair which reached down my back to short hair! And personally it was a great experiance. Most people I know who cut their hair have looked better for it (Dan from before), thats not to say I hated my appearance with long hair, I did like it, but it took SO much hassle to keep right as many of your girls and other long haired fellows will appreciate.
Now this got me thinking to how hair can really change what people think of you. After shaving my full head of hair and the removal of my furred chin (see: Beard) I received many a compliment from many a gender who were of many an age. I was told it looked so much better, I looked my age, I looked much more 'acceptable'. Acceptable was the one that stuck out, in this society looks account for a lot, whether people want to admit it or not, so obviously you want to provide people with the right look that they can access you with, rather then refusing to make your acquaintance and walk off away. Before I looked 'Metal' which is what I was going for in my earlier years. I was into music that other people weren't, me and my friends, we liked it heavy so you could headbang, strum your air guitar, roar and shout! But this wasn't me anymore. I still liked the genre ofcourse but my music tastes, in my old age, had broadened significantly and I reincorporated practically every genre into my tastes. Call me greedy but I loved it all. I no longer wanted people to think I liked one Genre which is only a mere shade on the musical palette.
A bad photo of the side of my new doo. Performed with bed hair!In one way it could be said I was 'conforming' to the standard of everyday people. Though conforming to 'can't be arsed' and 'need a change' were more my thing. In a certain way I was conforming, I wanted acceptance, I wanted to build new friendships and be liked by all, but in another I am an inside insurgent, I can catch people off guard with my musical selection and make them think 'oo-er' as I cross the controversial tunes of Heavy Metal and enter modern Pop. Also, how am I to define myself as 'different from the average person' If I am not first an average person, surely I shouldn't be set apart from them merely by looks, it should be my personality and character that breaks me free. Most people I know who like long hair on men say its because its this 'pulling away from the system', now I wasn't aware I was in the matrix and taken the wrong pill. "Thanks Morpheus, this will grow my hair big and strong now". I think it doesn't really matter what you look like as long as your personality remains intact to who you are, If you want long hair to fit in with your favorite bands, do it, I know I did. But I have found you reach a certain point where your happy to just be you.
That dashing young Scamp, Me.Hair plays a vital role in what we think of people, it's part of fashion, and part of our confidence. I feel a lot more confident with shorter hair and personally I think I look loads better, which is all that matters right?
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Today I have been thinking about:
Today I have been thinking about: Dan.
I was going to start my first "Today I have been thinking about" blog with something most people could relate to. Good idea? Perhaps. But then I started thinking. It's Dan's birthday tomorrow and he isn't here to celebrate it with us as he is in Hong Kong.
It's already the 7th in Hong Kong so firstly ,
Dan, sweating at the thought of another year alive
Now, none of my friends have done this but Dan, one of my best and closest friends, did. Dan has gone over to Hong Kong to teach English to the children there. He is currently placed at Kindergarten School of St. Matthias Church in Yuen Long and I just think its fascinating. Dan has literally done what most people say they want to do in a Gap year, he has gone out and had a major experience. Now whatever the motives behind him, wanting to see the world, have a change, leave home, break from education, or just on a whim, he has now got an experience that is going to live on with him. This is something that I could never do. I rely too much on being at home, being in a surrounding I find usual and in a way... Mundane.. Something that breaks too far from this routine would screw my head big time.
A little piece of planet I call home.
I am sure going away and living away from home is about as hard an experience as you can get, especially the sort of background we come from, close-knit groups of friends and family. I can imagine that if you were thrown into an environment where you had none of this you would find it very difficult very quickly. I suppose this is why I admire him so much. He has had the strength to pull away from the Norm and do something that is going to benefit him a million times over. Not only is he sure to build new friendships, which I think is continually beneficial, but he is going to have something, a foundation maybe, to come back into England and think 'I have done something'. Now it's my belief that everyone should have at least, but certainly not limiting it to, one experience that they can say 'I have done something' about. It's a powerful part of a personality. Myself? I would pick University as my most major experience, but its such a typical one. My friend, Woody, from University has tripped all around the world, which is really something. Dan has been to Hong Kong and taught. It's so admirable. I think out of all my friends I am most proud of him.
And on top of that I really miss him too.
I was going to start my first "Today I have been thinking about" blog with something most people could relate to. Good idea? Perhaps. But then I started thinking. It's Dan's birthday tomorrow and he isn't here to celebrate it with us as he is in Hong Kong.
It's already the 7th in Hong Kong so firstly ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAN!
Dan, sweating at the thought of another year aliveNow, none of my friends have done this but Dan, one of my best and closest friends, did. Dan has gone over to Hong Kong to teach English to the children there. He is currently placed at Kindergarten School of St. Matthias Church in Yuen Long and I just think its fascinating. Dan has literally done what most people say they want to do in a Gap year, he has gone out and had a major experience. Now whatever the motives behind him, wanting to see the world, have a change, leave home, break from education, or just on a whim, he has now got an experience that is going to live on with him. This is something that I could never do. I rely too much on being at home, being in a surrounding I find usual and in a way... Mundane.. Something that breaks too far from this routine would screw my head big time.
A little piece of planet I call home.I am sure going away and living away from home is about as hard an experience as you can get, especially the sort of background we come from, close-knit groups of friends and family. I can imagine that if you were thrown into an environment where you had none of this you would find it very difficult very quickly. I suppose this is why I admire him so much. He has had the strength to pull away from the Norm and do something that is going to benefit him a million times over. Not only is he sure to build new friendships, which I think is continually beneficial, but he is going to have something, a foundation maybe, to come back into England and think 'I have done something'. Now it's my belief that everyone should have at least, but certainly not limiting it to, one experience that they can say 'I have done something' about. It's a powerful part of a personality. Myself? I would pick University as my most major experience, but its such a typical one. My friend, Woody, from University has tripped all around the world, which is really something. Dan has been to Hong Kong and taught. It's so admirable. I think out of all my friends I am most proud of him.
And on top of that I really miss him too.
Lets get interesting!
Right!
So now all the mandatory "Who are you and what do you do?" Is out of the way I can really get started on blogging!
I must first say I don't really know what is going to become of it, I mean I have done this before but have I ever carried it out? No. So lets see if I can really get a blog underway. One thing I will try not to do is force it, I would hate for you to be searching across profiles, find mine, and thing 'Well damn, this guy is boring' just because I am forcing myself to type something each and every day!
The format I thought I would use is pretty standard, your every day blog, which random thoughts and musings on the day, but then I started to consider something bigger. At least once a week I will post a 'Today I have been thinking about...' with a subject. It could be a broad subject, 'Global Economics', or it could be something smaller that really doesn't matter, 'Toothbrushes', all of this depending on my inspiration and what I have actually been thinking about. Whether this will actually work and I will be able to come out with decent enough topics for you to read will reveal itself someday. Perhaps it will allow you further into my head to see how I think about things.
Ok, so in my First Blog I did a "Who?", It seems rational to follow it with a "What?" "When?" "How?" or "Why?"
What?
A Blog!
When?
Now!
How?
Blogger.com!
Why?
Well...
Why is a bigger question. Why Blog? because, as I feel it is about time I put together some inspiration and motivation. I am in Uni, this is no time to start slacking as I could fail, or worse, spend years there for it to not actually result in anything. This would be BAD. Also, I should really start writing again, its my passion, and I am always thinking up new ideas, new plots, new characters, or rethinking old plans. This needs to be down on paper, whether people like it or not. I need it out my head for the world to see! So I figured if I started to Blog, I would get into the mood of writing more often and may start to spend more time writing. Lets kick start my motivation!
Why Clockwork Musings? This is more to do with my writing. Before starting a blog I had a brief, very brief, think about what I should call my Blog. I needed something that would apply to me. I use the name 'DeusExMachina' on the internet, so I thought maybe something about Machines? And It was going to be about my thoughts... Well people always say 'You can see the cogs turning' when someone is thinking. Cogs, Machines, Thoughts. Cogs come from Clockwork, but Clockwork Thoughts doesn't roll of the the tongue like it should, Clockwork Musings, musings being thoughts and ideas, is, in my opinion, far better. I think what I also liked about the name was the oxymoron between the strict and timed nature of Clockwork and the lucidity of 'musing'. I also seem to attract Clockwork whenever I write. In my stories I like to write about inventions being Clockwork powered, I think its far more interesting and fantastical then just using magic, or present day technology. Clockwork. It has a magic of its own.
So there we have it. Thats your What, When, How and Why!
So now all the mandatory "Who are you and what do you do?" Is out of the way I can really get started on blogging!
I must first say I don't really know what is going to become of it, I mean I have done this before but have I ever carried it out? No. So lets see if I can really get a blog underway. One thing I will try not to do is force it, I would hate for you to be searching across profiles, find mine, and thing 'Well damn, this guy is boring' just because I am forcing myself to type something each and every day!
The format I thought I would use is pretty standard, your every day blog, which random thoughts and musings on the day, but then I started to consider something bigger. At least once a week I will post a 'Today I have been thinking about...' with a subject. It could be a broad subject, 'Global Economics', or it could be something smaller that really doesn't matter, 'Toothbrushes', all of this depending on my inspiration and what I have actually been thinking about. Whether this will actually work and I will be able to come out with decent enough topics for you to read will reveal itself someday. Perhaps it will allow you further into my head to see how I think about things.
Ok, so in my First Blog I did a "Who?", It seems rational to follow it with a "What?" "When?" "How?" or "Why?"
What?
A Blog!
When?
Now!
How?
Blogger.com!
Why?
Well...
Why is a bigger question. Why Blog? because, as I feel it is about time I put together some inspiration and motivation. I am in Uni, this is no time to start slacking as I could fail, or worse, spend years there for it to not actually result in anything. This would be BAD. Also, I should really start writing again, its my passion, and I am always thinking up new ideas, new plots, new characters, or rethinking old plans. This needs to be down on paper, whether people like it or not. I need it out my head for the world to see! So I figured if I started to Blog, I would get into the mood of writing more often and may start to spend more time writing. Lets kick start my motivation!
Why Clockwork Musings? This is more to do with my writing. Before starting a blog I had a brief, very brief, think about what I should call my Blog. I needed something that would apply to me. I use the name 'DeusExMachina' on the internet, so I thought maybe something about Machines? And It was going to be about my thoughts... Well people always say 'You can see the cogs turning' when someone is thinking. Cogs, Machines, Thoughts. Cogs come from Clockwork, but Clockwork Thoughts doesn't roll of the the tongue like it should, Clockwork Musings, musings being thoughts and ideas, is, in my opinion, far better. I think what I also liked about the name was the oxymoron between the strict and timed nature of Clockwork and the lucidity of 'musing'. I also seem to attract Clockwork whenever I write. In my stories I like to write about inventions being Clockwork powered, I think its far more interesting and fantastical then just using magic, or present day technology. Clockwork. It has a magic of its own.
So there we have it. Thats your What, When, How and Why!
That first post...
Ok, so It's time for that ever so awkward first post. Who knows exactly what I am meant to write here since my blog has no real direction at the moment. Why did I blog? Well why not? I used to blog a little bit when I was younger, 15 going on 16 to be precise, but it sort of fell through. I suppose I used to do it to get stuff from my chest but now I don't really have stuff on my chest, so lets approach things in a more half hearted manor shall we?
I suppose I should start with a little self introduction. So here we go!
Who am I?
I am anybody, face in the crowd? Sure. Personally I think where I stand out most is in my writing, but not in my motivation for it. I love creative writing and adore creating new concepts and someday if I set my mind to something I might actually walk away with something decent. I will be adressing this later but for now just know that I am a lazy and somewhat undermotivated individual. I have hobbies, who doesn't, and, having never been one for the life of outdoor sports, I have found I much prefer a games console, book, film, or other form of mass media. I have a complete love for psychology, and I am in the process of studying it at University, I also have a love for debates and some philosophy if I can grasp it. With the exception of the motivation this is starting to sound like my personal statement for Uni.
Whats most important in my life?
My friends and family are some of the most important aspects of my life. I like my alone time sure but I also like knowing that I have people there to support me. The only time I am ever truly motivated or ahead of the game it's because I am thinking about someone else rather then myself. It sounds like false modesty but I don't mean it like that, I mean more that the people I love make me who I am and I am nothing without them. My family have always been very supporting, trying to push me in the direction of education, which is probably the best for me, it's been there to help me learn and form new friendships while continually bettering my future. My friends are big parts of my life, as big as my family, so much so I consider them family. I think it's such a great feeling to have that huge network, that web, of people you know and how you can all help each other.
Well, I don't know how big this post will be as its the first and I don't really know the layout yet, but I figure its long enough for my 'about me' section. If you want to read my proper profile I am on Myspace though I use it as a point of reference rather then a way of chatting commenting (it has gone down hill recently with virus' and such like). As much as this blog is personal, I don't really want to fill it with facts about myself, I'd prefer to indulge you in opinions, stories, and works of mine. So lets call an end to this post.
I suppose I should start with a little self introduction. So here we go!
Who am I?
I am anybody, face in the crowd? Sure. Personally I think where I stand out most is in my writing, but not in my motivation for it. I love creative writing and adore creating new concepts and someday if I set my mind to something I might actually walk away with something decent. I will be adressing this later but for now just know that I am a lazy and somewhat undermotivated individual. I have hobbies, who doesn't, and, having never been one for the life of outdoor sports, I have found I much prefer a games console, book, film, or other form of mass media. I have a complete love for psychology, and I am in the process of studying it at University, I also have a love for debates and some philosophy if I can grasp it. With the exception of the motivation this is starting to sound like my personal statement for Uni.
Whats most important in my life?
My friends and family are some of the most important aspects of my life. I like my alone time sure but I also like knowing that I have people there to support me. The only time I am ever truly motivated or ahead of the game it's because I am thinking about someone else rather then myself. It sounds like false modesty but I don't mean it like that, I mean more that the people I love make me who I am and I am nothing without them. My family have always been very supporting, trying to push me in the direction of education, which is probably the best for me, it's been there to help me learn and form new friendships while continually bettering my future. My friends are big parts of my life, as big as my family, so much so I consider them family. I think it's such a great feeling to have that huge network, that web, of people you know and how you can all help each other.
Well, I don't know how big this post will be as its the first and I don't really know the layout yet, but I figure its long enough for my 'about me' section. If you want to read my proper profile I am on Myspace though I use it as a point of reference rather then a way of chatting commenting (it has gone down hill recently with virus' and such like). As much as this blog is personal, I don't really want to fill it with facts about myself, I'd prefer to indulge you in opinions, stories, and works of mine. So lets call an end to this post.
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