I've been thinking about these 'Talents' people have.
On the little old channel they call E4 a new wave of Big Brother started a week ago today. Now, I've always been a fan of NORMAL Big Brother but the Celebrity one usually got on my nerves... Luckily this year its been replaced with 'BigBrother Celebrity Hijack' and the contestants are not the celebrities we saw once before but my age group, between 18 - 21, who all have a 'Talent'. Theres a singer/songwriter, an artist, the chairman of the Scottish youth parliament, a race car driver, and so on. (All, with details, can be found here)Theres even an exceptionally fit circus performer who is so flexable, born in where I live, and has a wonderful eastern European accent...... *fades off into fantasy* Wait? Where was I? So these are people, all in my age group I stress, are Talented and moving their way sharply up in the world. Where does that leave me?
These are people to whom I have a deal of respect. When I was younger, and frightfully naive I might add, I used to believe that I would be able to get a book published by the time I was 18. I am 18 now... So where does that leave me? What I had failed to notice, back in my youth, was that I have an incredible lack of motivation that doesn't quite aid me in me quest for publication. I also didn't give due attention to me being shit within the literacy field. Reading back what I used to write I get this awful cringe in the pit of my stomach. It was alright for my age I suppose, but when my lack of motivation took over my ambition, and all those other words ending in "tion", my skills didn't ascend further but sort of dwindled backwards at a steady pace. Thats what this whole blog shenanigan is for. If I have a goal to achieve, if I am doing it for someone other then myself and receive some encouragement I should be able to do something worthwhile. I am going to be entering a few writing competitions too. I especially liked the look of this one where you join up before hand and then on the date your given the subject and 24 hours to write about it. I work best under pressure.
On the little old channel they call E4 a new wave of Big Brother started a week ago today. Now, I've always been a fan of NORMAL Big Brother but the Celebrity one usually got on my nerves... Luckily this year its been replaced with 'BigBrother Celebrity Hijack' and the contestants are not the celebrities we saw once before but my age group, between 18 - 21, who all have a 'Talent'. Theres a singer/songwriter, an artist, the chairman of the Scottish youth parliament, a race car driver, and so on. (All, with details, can be found here)Theres even an exceptionally fit circus performer who is so flexable, born in where I live, and has a wonderful eastern European accent...... *fades off into fantasy* Wait? Where was I? So these are people, all in my age group I stress, are Talented and moving their way sharply up in the world. Where does that leave me?
These are people to whom I have a deal of respect. When I was younger, and frightfully naive I might add, I used to believe that I would be able to get a book published by the time I was 18. I am 18 now... So where does that leave me? What I had failed to notice, back in my youth, was that I have an incredible lack of motivation that doesn't quite aid me in me quest for publication. I also didn't give due attention to me being shit within the literacy field. Reading back what I used to write I get this awful cringe in the pit of my stomach. It was alright for my age I suppose, but when my lack of motivation took over my ambition, and all those other words ending in "tion", my skills didn't ascend further but sort of dwindled backwards at a steady pace. Thats what this whole blog shenanigan is for. If I have a goal to achieve, if I am doing it for someone other then myself and receive some encouragement I should be able to do something worthwhile. I am going to be entering a few writing competitions too. I especially liked the look of this one where you join up before hand and then on the date your given the subject and 24 hours to write about it. I work best under pressure.
I think 'Talents' come to people, you just get these Naturals who pretty much just 'get it' when it comes to their subject. Whether this is science, maths, the arts, sport, or whatever else there is out there, I think you just get the 'naturals'. For them practice makes perfect, but they had a sort of handicap in favor to begin with, whereas everyone else has to practice just to be 'alright' at it. Personally I'd love to be able to draw and you get these natural painters and sketchers. Writing comes a bit more naturally to me, (please note 'bit') I've never really written anything I am truly proud of but other people have liked some of my stuff but they could just be being nice, or swaying in my favour because I am a mate.
I suppose I am thinking about this really because what have I really achieved in my life? A purple belt in Karate, which I took for Seven years and was still a porky kid, and two years of Drama school, which I went off after my friend left when I really should have carried on (though it probably wouldn't have aided what little masculinity I have). See what I mean about motivation? I don't have the... 'stick with it-ness', the perseverance.
I mean one of the guys on this BigBrother started his business before he was 10 and is now, at 19, running an internet company with a turnover of £200,000 a year... Wow. I have always wanted one of these internet businesses which just take off but I can't see any niches. Maybe one day an idea may hit me, but until then, I am too unmotivated to look. I really need to do something about this motivation... I will you know, I am determined to get my ass up and achieve something.
If practice makes perfect, I'm going to need practice. For that I need motivation, determination, and perseverance. I give my electronic signature right here on this blog. I am going to try for a change. If I don't, please feel free to laugh and ridicule me, it might help me push forward... or send me on a spiral of depression. Either is a change.
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