- When I stress it starts off small, I can feel a niggling doubt which I, usually, manage to put off and this leads to me procrastinating or not trying as hard as I should. I normally feel confident at this stage.
- Later on this stress builds, and I begin to panic. This is when things get interesting. I start to work a little harder and it is here I begin to realise I don't have as much time as I thought and know less about the subject then I thought.
- About now I have a panic attack. I can't focus, concentrate, or see the end goal, all of which lead to more stress and to a feeling of hopelessness. I fidget, cry, and am just generally irritable.
- By now I can't think about anything else, I'll have periods of productivity, but I wont be able to calm down, or take a break, or let myself think about anything other then this stress. What makes matters worse, is that I'll still procrastinate and be distracted, for instance writing this blog.
- Untill the project is done, dusted, and out of my control, this cycle will repeat over and over.
And that, followers, is how my head is right now. I'm stressing, I feel a failure, and I am worried that I'm going to fail or receive a low grade. I've lost sight of the path to the end goal, my heads a web of intangibility.
Eugh.
Wish me Luck.
Shaun Kellett
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