I am very good, it seems, at procrastination, I am even doing my dissertation on the subject, but sometimes I can see a picture of what I need to do and it stresses me.
I have recently been better at taking into account the work I have to do and while it, occasionally, motivates me to sit down and work it's better at sending my head into a complex brainstorm of stress. I can't focus on one piece of work, as they all bounce about begging me to focus on them instead. What I find is my attention is drawn more to my IS, my Independant Study, my Dissertation, but I'm finding it hard to grasp and understand. This stresses me more.
It's getting to the point where I'm having mini panic attacks, I'm shouting/snapping at my Girlfriend when she's done nothing wrong, and I'm losing sleep.
Yet part of me still just procrastinates, puts it out my head, and lets me go on just playing Video Games and Facebooking.
That's why this week I'm going to try and be productive. I'm going to overcome these stress attacks and do some work. I should hopefully be able to see my Supervisor about my Dissertation tomorrow, and I should hopefully be able to complete some work by the weekend. Just in time to have a break and go home to see the family.
Shaun
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