Trust

To me Trust is a very powerful, and also much needed, thing.

It's hard to pinpoint what starts trust. When do you put all your faith into someone? Do they have to prove themselves through some rigerous task? Or is it simply something that happens?

Many people have trouble with it. Some people trust nobody, some people wont even trust themselves, but I don't seem to have any such problem, I am quite keen to put my trust into all of my friends. I know that most, if not all, of them would never intentionally hurt me and I hope they know the same back.

The past week or so I've had a few issues regarding trust come up and it's hard to say how they've had an effect. If you suddenly suppose that maybe someone your really close with cheated on you, does that mean you've suddenly lost trust with them? I don't think it does. To many an extent the fact I believe their reply shows that the trust is there, even if there was the doubt there to begin with.

Yesterday the tables turned and suddenly I was the one being doubted. Call it Karma, Coincidence, Or whatever you want but it happened. I can't say I didn't predict it, I knew what it would look like from the off but surely if I had of brought it up it would make me look like I had a guilty conscience? I don't know, I over think sometimes. Today I begged to be forgiven and to be trusted and I've never thought of it as something I would ever have to do. I know this is because I assume people might feel like I do and might trust me, but I understand that other people have complete different ways of looking at things, different ways of feeling. My point was across in the end but there was still doubt there and that upset me. I accept it, but it still upsets me that someone could think I would do something like that. My intentions are never normally bad.

So it brings me to wonder, what is a friendship without trust? To me if that trust, that faith, isn't there then the friendship isn't very strong. It's hardly a friendship at all in my eyes. What I like most about my friends, is that I can trust them. I can share secrets, talk over problems, lend my stuff, and rely on them to be there when I need them. That to me is trust. Obviously there is varying levels, I know that theres some of my friends I wouldn't open up fully to, but theres still something there, some trust that I have in them.

My bestest friends know, hopefully, who they are and I hope they know that I do adore them and trust in them as close to 100% as I can.

"To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved."
George MacDonald