Lets self destruct

Human beings are destructive by nature. We like to build but we also have a tendancy to destroy. In some respects it balances, destroying an old building to make way for a new one, but in others its just needless destruction, that of war.

Destruction isn't just a physical thing, its very emotional and psychological as well. People love nothing better then self destruction. What I have found is people will often get themselves into situations which are only going to cause themselves harm, and they know this, but people will carry it on anyway. We will hold our heads high into such terror, just because we are stubborn, stupid, animals who get carried away thinking about Hope. False hope at that.

When it's easier for us to try and get over something, we tend to just sit and dwell. We don't try and offer ourselves relief. Often when it's easier to talk something over, we will bottle it up and keep quite to ourselves. If someone close offers us advice, not only will we not take it but we will probably find some way of justifing not taking it. Why do we lie to ourselves? Why, when the answer seems so obvious, do we decide to hope for something else only to wind up crushing ourselves? We don't just pick the wrong path, we pick the wrong destination, the wrong means of transport.

But then again... I live by no regrets, so where does this leave me?

This mood is temporary. It always is. We hate to say we enjoy being down, depressed, but at the heart of it we love the fact it makes us feel superior, smarter, than everyone else. Ignorance is bliss after all, so when were down we view ourselves as being less ignorant, more realistic, more rational. Emotions get in the way of everything, even when your trying to think rationally their there. And hope is the worst, most distracting one of them all. "Hope is the first step on the road to dissapointment"

Sorry this has been such a down and, eugh, post but I am just clearing my head at the moment. This probably didn't make a lot of sense but I am not re-reading it.